schmerzerling:

you know what’s really interesting about this episode though–bobo gave the dynamic a whole new dimension that I really didn’t expect

i’ve known since i saw the twist at the end of s11 that dean and sam would be disappointed by their real mother and disenchanted when they realized that she wasn’t this monolithic, idyllic, flawless ideal that their father made her out to be–with how much John built her up when they were boys and how little they actually knew about her, there was no way that she could ever be to them what they wanted her to be

what i WASN’T expecting was how disappointed mary would be by her boys

she didn’t want them hunting and that’s a given, she doesn’t like the life john chose for them, of course–but more than that, dean and sam represent the same thing to her that she represented to them all their lives, and i guess i never really thought about that

for dean and sam, mary represents a calm, normal life–the life they would have had were it not touched so early by the supernatural

and for mary, sam and dean are also her escape, her normal life, her soft little baby boys that came well-deserved at the end of a horrible hunting-centric adolescence–a peaceful, perfect twilight that she’s been living out happily for the last thirty-odd years

and now they’ve both discovered that they are all Real People and they’ve lost what might be their last ties to that elusive happy ending

and is it just me or is the fuckin haze of disillusionment in here thick enough to cut with a KNIFE